A bit freaked out!!!!

Just been talking to my wonderful Doctor... My little medical 'issue' - I know what is going on now... So I can talk about it. It has been a worrying weekend for us!

As most of you know we have three beautiful children, 1, 2 & 3 - and we had decided that three children was enough for us - We did what Peter Costello told us, 1 for me, 1 for Jack and 1 for Australia.... So we decided to seek permanent birth control - I had my tubes done in Feb. We lost three babies before we found out what was causing our problems and found it easy to conceive but hard to keep!!

So... low and behold this month I only spotted a little and I am very regular and know my body quite well - I knew something wasn't right. I let it go a fortnight, and in these two weeks I felt pregnant. I have been pregnant 6 times previously - so I really do know what I am talking about.

I finally discussed this with Jack and he had been thinking along the same lines and we decied to do a home pregnancy test - We didn't want to be looking like dickheads at the Dr's!! It was positive and we made a urgent call to the Dr and he saw us straight away. He telephoned the specialist that performed my op and he explained how the procedure works... and with our high fertility and my young age the chances of my tubes healing and becoming open again was 1 in 500 - and I guess I was the lucky 1 in this 500!! So a rush trip to Horsham for a scan. Out of those 1 in 500 only 5 would be viable - so we had to make sure that it wasn't etoptic ( it wasn't!!!) So a blood test this morning confirmed that I was pregnant and the hormone levels are dropping, meaning that the fetus isn't viable. We where pretty certain of this anyway - they didn't see anything with the scan and the way to procedure is done - more then likely the little embryo got stuck in some of the scaring from the burning of the tubes to seal them.

So another blood test is going to be required on Wednesday morning to ensure that my levels are still dropping and then I have to go to Ballarat on Thursday to see my specialist to check everything again and book in again to have the tubes CLAMPED!!!

I really don't know what I am feeling at the moment - I was very teary on Friday but I think I really did know what was going on and that I was in control of my body and knew what I felt! I love my children dearly and if this one was viable I would love it all the same... we know the heartache of not being able to have children - 3 years of not knowing - so there was no way on earth I would terminate a healthy baby - but the choice was not ours this time....

So, Thursday to Ballarat (will miss my first ever WW meeting) and will see from there when the op will be done AGAIN - I really didn't bounce back like I thought I would in Feb - So it will be interesting to see how it all goes 2nd time round!

I better go and call my mum to see if she is working on Thursday so she can look after the kids.

Take care all:)

Where has the weekend gone???

It is Sunday night and it feels like the weekend hasn't even been yet!! But it is that time of the year. Harvest has started in full swing and Jack has been busy stripping Barley and it is going well. But alias tomorrow it is back to his "day-job" as a agronomist, and I know that he will be just itching to get back in the header after work!!

The kids have been great - had to make a quick trip to Horsham on Friday for a medical appointment - have a bit of a health 'issue' at present - but will let you know more when I know what is going on!

We have a playgroup christmas party this morning, full-on - jumping castle, BBQ, clowns and magic shows. And what would a christmas party be without Santa! We got home at about 2pm and all of the kids had a little nap. So now.. bathed and in bed as Da Kath and Kim Code is going to be on in only 10 minutes and I am a kath & kim tragic - so kids and bed and quite!!

Eating has been good over the weekend - went out for tea on Friday night and ordered a salad - well within my points allowance... the only downfall is exercise. With Jack busy I didn't get in my normal hour walk over the weekend. So I guess two hours of ironing will have to do for some bonus points!

Anyway... only a few minutes till Kath & kim - must go...
Bye!!

ARRHHHH... I gained....

Not all bad... my weight was 71.2 - so at 500gram gain.. but (here come the excuses....) towards the end of TTOM, I feel very fluidy and I had a HUGE weekend of food... so really I am pleased it wasn't much more!!

So really, I am maintaining well. Warracknabeal WW bubby lost a whopping 2kg at got her 10% star!! Well done Janita!!

So, my committment for the week is to again stop the BLT's (Bites, licks and taste!)

We talked about nuts and wholemeal/grains bread - so I came home via the supermarket and brought both. I am afraid that we are a White bread family here!!! Time for change!

My brush with a size 10.....

Firstly... thanks for all of the advise to curb my Snack-attacks - will keep focused and will see how I go again this next week. I am going to make the same committment again this week - just until I get it right! It is going to hard enough over the next month as it is - I really don't need t be counting all of the BLT"S - (I like that one - Bites, licks and tastes!!)

My brush with a size 10???? I went to Horsham shopping yesterday with my Mum and I brought a pair of size 10 jeans - OMG - I can never remember fitting into size 10 pants. To be honest - they might my just a little firmer around my butt then I would normally wear - but I think the tag sold me on them!

I am going to have to start working on my tone - my Mummy tummy is sticking out more, so some more pilates to work on the "power house" (Can anyone guess what pilates dvd I have???)

I dragged Jack into a "teeny bopper" clothes shop yesterday and he brought me my goal outfit... The shop only carries up to a size 14 - so needless to say it was my first visit to the shop to bys clothes for me and not my sister. I will get Jack to take a photo of me on Friday night before we are heading out (again!!) and will post for you all to see FINIALLY!!!

I jumped on Mum's scales yesterday and it showed that I had a little loss - but will just wait and see! I don't own scales - I did own a set but after I joined WW and had my first weigh in and found that they where so out it wasn't funny - I threw them out. I weighted 5 kg more at WW then home! It doesn't worry me not weighing everyday - like some other Bloggers - but by the end of my week I am really curious to see....

My Warracknabeal WW bubby, Janita, is heading towards her 10% goal tonight at weigh in. She was the one that got me to join up. I saw her in the street and she had a little baby boy a couple of months after Hugh and she had lost some weight, and that is how it started for me. So, we bubby each other and bounce thing off each other all week. I find it very important to me to have that person to encourage and support. . . When I first started, I didn't tell many people, really only family! I think I was worried that I would fail and people would talk about me!! But once people started to notice that I had lost weight - I told the world that it was the WW program that was helping me.. hopefully to inspire other people to think about it!

Anyway... kids have a tour of a shearing shed this morning with playgroup, so I better go and get them dressed and looking presentatble... thanks again for all of your words of encouragement and support!!

I will quickly post with a Weigh-in result tonight!
have a great day:)

Failing my commitment....

Does everyone else make a commitment each week?? When I first started, I was so motivated that I didn't need to, but as the weeks went by I found that the commitment each week really did help! - but alas I am failing my first one... May be I made it just too hard!

My commitment for this week??? To stop picking at food... Stop all of the licks, popping one biscuit in my mouth of the kids, just a little bit of cheese... All of the little tastes that happen throughout the day, Jack, my husband, loves cheeses and smallgoods such as kabana and salami - so they are still in the house all of the time. The kids got lolly bags over the weekend and I have found myself so many times in the pantry just having one... The another and before you know it I am feeding them to the chook so to avoid them totally!! (Kids really don't need them anyway!)

When I first embarked on WW - I was so good at all of the little tastes, but I need to stop it again before it really becomes a bad habit!

Any suggestions to put this a bay??? When the kids are in care on Wednesday, it isn't an issue. As I eat when I want to and I haven't have to have kids eating lunch between sleeps and constant snacks (Pizza shapes are my current favorite)

It is really frustrating me that I can seem to stop when I really want to - - Is that like a smoker trying to quit???

I have over pointed a lot of my snacks like these today - to try and put me off eating them.

Kids are in care tomorrow so I will be good tomorrow - I promise.

Another weekend gone.....

I think I will be living off "free soup" for the rest of the week.... What a weekend!! Had Apex Christmas party Friday night, best friends engagement party on Saturday night and Santa come to the park for Apex yesterday afternoon.... Too many late nights for me and the kids!! I can't expect to loss weight with what I ate and drank over the weekend - I guess I can only hope to maintain! - I still have a few days to catch up before weigh in!!

Thank you everyone for all of your comments of congratulations... I must say I am still feeling very happy with myself about the weight that I have lost!! In the time that I have been going to WW, I have been the only one to reach goal so far. There are a few not very far from it... I think it is encouraging seeing people that the WW plan has worked for, and worked well for. During the last ten weeks I haven't starved myself, I have had treats, I have only been hungry on a couple of occasions... It has all been about choice of foods.. And I think that I still need to exercise more. I get in lots of incential movements during the day, but actual planned exercise is still only 30min, tops a day. Unless I haven't got the kids and I do a big catch up walk or something...

I will post some photos shortly - But if you have read my Christmas wishlist post - you will see that we don't have a digital camera as yet - arriving for christmas - so they will appear shortly...

My mum reminded me that I now weigh 7 kg less then what I did when we got married.... So I don't think I would have been this light since around 1997 or 1998...

Phillippa's vegie patch is very impressive.... if we had a digital camera I would post you a photo of ours, but we are just asarting to reap the rewards of our vegie patch - Jack is an agronomist (A farm adviser for those city people... Country folks would know what one it..) so our vegie patch is far from organic, but it does grow quickly and BIG vegies.... The kids love planting seeds, watering and then picking the fruit and veg.. Laura, my middle daughter can ben found head down and bum up in the strawberries... Just eating her way through them..

Well, I better sign off and do some housework. One thing that suffered over the weekend....

Calmed down a little...

Have had a nights sleep and the excitment has calmed down a little..... the weigh - in results:
Starting weight 81kg
Last night's weight: 70.7kg
Total loss of 10.3kg (in 10 weeks)
WWGW is 71kg
so, I am now in my ideal BMI - yeah -

Maintenance has started but I still have a PGW of 68 - so will be working towards that...

Have a great weekend everyone!!

AT WW GOAL......

Just got home from WW Meeting at I can't remember what I weighed, but I was under goal - - Got key ring and have started maintenance....
Will put in more details once the excitment has calmed down a little!! I have lost over 10 kg in 10 weeks.... I Didn't think it would be possible!!

My wishlist....

Following Phillipa's example here is my christmas wish list....

1 MP3 player - to walk with - Top of my list. We have music going all the time at home and I really miss the noise when walking...

2. Perfume - something new and fresh. I usually wear Tommy Girl or Happy....

3. New sunglasses - Some of those funky large framed ones.. (My sister is taking care of this)

4. Funky necklace and bracelet - I have lots but you can never have too many.

5. Digital camera (my mum is buying this for me)

6. Bigger tv (We don't watch a lot of tv - but the kids shows drive me mental after the 40th time of the same show - so a second tv is really needed) -My dad is buying this for me..

7. New TV Cabinet

8. Fire fighter pump - To make it easier for me to water the lavender plantation (i think Jack's parents are buying that for us!)

9. Any Donna Hay cookbook.. (I love Donna - I brought one of her Marie Claire books years ago because I thought it looked good in my kitchen - never used it until I had kids and more time to cook!)

10. A new kitchen (I know... that one is pushing it, but when we moved to the farm not only did I half the size of my house but my kitchen shrunk to about a 1/4 of the size of my old one - I really miss it.)

Weigh-in tonight and Jack is running late... so I am meeting him at the corner shortly and he will take the girls and I will take Hugh with me - that will be interesting. My little man loves causing trouble! I wasn't going to stay for the meeting, but I really need to, just to keep motivated. I always walk out of there with some little bit of info that I didn't know before - I don't know if I will get to WW Goal tonight as it is TTOM and I usually gain when that happens....

For the first time since I have started WW - 10 weeks ago - I will be going to see Jim - Jim is the local greek that owns the Take away food shop here in Warracknabeal. I saw him during the week and and he made comment that it has been a while since he has seen me. So I will get the kids and Jack some Chips from there to go with the BBQ chook and salad. Very lazy tea, but has been hot day and with Jack running late - we won't have tea before 7.30 - very late for the kids, but they will survive!

Will post again later with the details of my weigh in..

Clothes shopping....

The ezibuy mag arrived this morning and I have just put in an order for some clothes for myself and my husband... Some size 12 jeans. I really hope that they will fit. I have two size 14 pairs that I can't keep up and look stupid as they hang from my hips... So here hoping these ones will fit!! They where only $30, I don't want to spend too much on jeans just yet. I have spent a lot on jeans the last 12 months. My weight has gone up and down then up again....

The kids had take-a-break this morning and I took the opportunity to go walking - 8000 steps and I called it quits. I was SO windy... Called in on a friend and had a cup of tea instead!

Does anyone else worry about bloggers who haven't updated their blog recently?? I wonder if they have fallen off the wagon and gone back to old ways, or perhaps going through a bad patch and not wanting to talk about it?? This that just me - or do I need to get e life and stop thinking so much about things?

I have never kept a journal before - never - even as a kid when it was cool! I wonder if I keep this going?? Already I have read back on previous posts and I have forgotten some of the things that I has written about!

I had my father-in-law here all weekend. He was sick and we all knew about it.. Won't go on too much about it but it was a LONG few days. My mother-in-law is coming here to look after the girls when Jack and I go to Echuca in a few weeks so I am really looking forward to that!

Anyway, I am pumping water and I better go check it in case I have water everywhere..
Hope all is well
Kirsty

Clean up day.....

Sunday clean up....

Had 12 adults and 10 kids here last night for tea and the house looks like a bomb has gone off... All the same it is worth it.. The kids all get grumpy and sooky by the end of the night, but usually a quite day on Sunday repairs all loss of sleep, for all...
So, I have cleaned as far as the family room... where the computer is. Father -inlaw is flying into Horsham today to have his plane repaired, so Jack is heading over to Horsham shortly to pick him up. We only live a few kms from the Warracknabeal Airport and it takes us moments to get there, but because the plane needs to be repaired, a 30min drive needed today.
Walked again yesterday, with the kids. Very slow walk, but I was also worried about snakes as Jack killed one earlier during the day on the drive, where I walk. He tells me that it wasn't that big, but I REALLY hate snakes and always have. I still have a shotgun cartridge that my father shot a snake with when I was about 10 - I was picking up sticks to burn and I picked up a snake in long grass.. I still shutter now when I think about it, but Dad shot it and I guess the cartridge is my lucky charm... I have taken it with me when I had the kids, exams, times of worry... Now it lives in my dresser... Nice little keepsake for the kids. I will have to think of a better story to go with it then "you mother got scared of a snake so your grandfather killed it".... Something more exciting..

So, all of our guests enjoyed WW receipes, without even knowing it... After everyone had eaten and started asking about the food did I then let on. I have one friend that refuses to eat 'diet' anything... So I hope she was surprised that it doesn't have to be cooked in fat to taste nice!

Anyway, better go and clear some mess before father-in-law arrives.

Hope you are having a great weekend...

tut tut.... you are a bad mother....

It was just one of those things.... after my committment last night that I would try and exercise at least 5 times this week - I put the two younger kids to bed for their afternoon nap and put on a DVD for Emilie and I went for a 20 minute walk.... down the drive and out onto the road (We on a farm or our drive is about 1km long...) anyway, i got to my 10min mark and turned around to come home, got back into the driveway and saw Emilie (3 1/2) running towards me, crying... She wanted to go for a walk with me and put on her shoes and she tried to catch me.. bless her heart. She told me, between sobs, that she climbed up onto the gate and yelled out "mumma" and I didn't hear her so she decided to come home slowly..... anyway, as I turned into the driveway she saw me and just started to run towards me... The old heart strings are being pulled!!

So even through I got my walk in, I feel as guilty as hell about it...

Yet another night out tonight. My mum is on her way up from Horsham to look after the kids as Jack and I have to attend a Apex Dinner in Murtoa.... 1000th dinner!!! sounds exciting!!

Anyway, thanks for support and I better go and give Emilie a cuddle!!

Weigh in update

Just had weigh in and another loss of .4 - brings my weight to 71.9 - only .9 to WW goal. Commitment for week - to walk at least 5 times this week....

More later - I need to eat tea - starving!!!

Time to pack...

No... not us. My little sister is moving to Melbourne and we have to pack up her flat tomorrow. So my child-free day will be spent in Horsham packing up her stuff. She is a shithouse packer... she walks around the house just throwing stuff into a box, then complains at the other end that she can't find anything.... Being married to an agronomist we have moved A LOT.... our time here at Warracknbeal is the longest we have stayed anywhere - over 5 years. I think since we had kids the desire to move is long gone...

About 20 mins since I finished the last sentence... Laura, my 2 1/2 year old decided it was time to feed the chooks...

Sally, my sister is almost 25 and is going to Melbourne for placement at a huge accounting firm KPMG then she is going to finish her degree that she has been doing forever by corro... will miss her, but thank god for emails...

I had a huge walk today - 6km in 1.5hrs.. I walked out to a friends farm from town. The kids where ar Take-a-break this morning and it is when I usually do my shopping and have a decent walk and since I shopped last night, I just spent the time walking.

No much else to report, I am not confident with my weigh on on Thursday night... I made sasuage rolls for the family on Sunday and God knows how many points they are worth...

Catch you all later

K

Ridin'' cowboy...

That time of the year again... The Warracknabeal Rodeo... Have not long arrived back home, bathed three very grumpy kids and they are just unwinding watching a Madagascar while replenishing their fluids... Was hot there today..
I wouldn't normally be a person to attend a Rodeo, but it is a big social event here and great for our little country town... The girls love it... They talk to the cowboys, pat the bulls and horses, generally a great day out!
Jack was helping out with a shearing competition and he won $10 in the feral ute comp for the work ute division.. (Elders will be proud ... he he he) and he is still there.. won't be long and he will be home.
I was starving by the time i got home, there was only crap to eat there and I wasn't going to blow a entire weeks work on a fatty, tasteless fast food crap... so I am now eating carrots and celery with Tzatziki dip with a light beer..
Goal Weight???????? I have a question.. how did you set your goal?? Was it a weight that you once was? Did your WW leader set it for you??? I have never officially set my goal weight! I guess my ideal weight would be 68 and the only reason I have this figure in my mind is that I can remember being 69kg's and I would like to say that I am the lightest that I have ever been... Is that wrong?? My WW guide tells me that 71kg is ok for my height, should I set that as my goal and if I get lower, i get lower?? Some feedback would be great..
Anyway, best get my babies to bed.
Hope everyone is having a great weekend..

Another loss and 10% goal reached

I really hope this one works -- - I have tried 3 other times to lodge this post, but there seems to be a problem... "grumble"

I loss another whole kilo this week - bringing my total loss to 8.7kg in 8 weeks - I am amazed with this loss - and I have reached my 10% goal and received my gold star this week. I think this is the most excited I have been since I began WW...

I also brought a bag full of stuff from the meeting - they have a sale on and I brought my mother her own Pedometer - in the vain hope that I might get mine back, 3 cook books and two motivational books - all for $30 odd bucks!!
Anyway, I have just finished giving my husband's back a massage - he jumped a fence today and has hurt his back, three kids in bed, and about to head there myself!
Take care everyone..
Kirsty x

Having a bad blog day...

will try and upload image again!!

Where has the days gone???

I can't believe that it is Thursday already!!!! This time last year, I had just delivered my little baby Hugh... Yes, my little man turned one today and how quickly the year has gone! So much has happened in that year! We gave Hugh one of those ride on tractors with a trailer - he is a little to small for it just yet, but his sisters love it! (And have spent most of the morning fighting over it!)
Some other exciting events this week - I brought a size 12 skirt this week!! I haven't brought size 12 pants or skirts for YEARS!! - I have been able to squeeze into the odd size 12 top over the year, but not the bottom half.. I was a bit chuffed!

Food wise I Have behaved this week and I have my weigh in tonight.. up to 8 weeks on WW and I would love to be able to say that I lost 8kg in 8 weeks, so I would like to lose at least 300g this week! - Will post again and let you all know!!

So, that is the exciting news for the week and things has stayed the same wth everything else... I have attached a photo of my kids for you to have a look at.. I can say today that I have a 1 year, 2 year old and a 3 year old... he he he.. they are wonderful kids (most of the time!!)